Life or something like it

Hey, hello, it's been a long time. I remember when I updated this blog weekly, then nothing happened so I had nothing to share, or I was depressed and blah blah blah. Then I was just posting essays, or reposting older essays that I hadn't even bothered to edit. 

A lot has changed. 

Since the last post I have been hired at two places. One is a full time, contract gig at a call center for online school enrollment.  The other is part time at a grocery store. Between these two I'm working around 60 hours a week, so I have next to no energy or time for anything else. So of course I spent some time recently editing some stories, updating my resume and writing about me for an internship with a magazine. If I get that job I'll be working around 80 hours a week, maybe 90, so I'm living something like a life. 

Thankfully the 90 hours wouldn't be for long. If I get hired to stay at the call center I'll leave the grocery store, but chicken and eggs.  

I'm honestly just tired all the time. My right wrist (the drawing one) aches just about all the time from the repetitive motions at the grocery store, so drawing will be fun when I get to do that more often. I'm hoping sometime soon I can get a more guaranteed 40hr/wk job so I can leave the store and spend my evenings working on comics and enjoying anything. I just have very little time for anything but working someplace or another right now. 

I have done some small sketches, they can be seen on instagram when I post them and I recently spent some time posting some summer sketches to my sketch blog. I'm currently thinking about working on an art book, comic book sized (8x10.5?) to print for Small Press Expo 2014, here's to being able to work on that soon. I've recently fallen back in love with ink and inkwashes, so I want to work on a book of figures and pin ups for next year, I don't know how many pages, I guess I'll see how many pieces I can do then I'll figure out how I want to print it. 

I'm looking forward to SPX this year. It'll be another great weekend, I'm sure, and it's also the one year anniversary of this site, so that's fun. Maybe I'll be able to make something special for that. I ought to design new business cards some time soon, maybe add my twitter, I'm not sure if I'm ready for that to get out yet. 

We'll see.  

What else is going on in my life? Nothing, just work and it sucks. I have no energy or time for paramours, or to even consider looking. I don't know if I've said this here before, but I first came to terms with becoming an old maid when I was 16, so....I think I first need to leave Reston, then find some one to spend my life with. Ehh, I have friends who put up with my shit, I'm good. 

All right you freaks and weirdos, thanks for hanging out for a few and reading about how my dumb life is dumb. I'll keep talking about it and letting you know where things are headed from here and maybe I'll be able to share some freaking art soon. I mean, I just bought a tablet, I just think what I'm doing is shit so I don't want to share it here until I feel it looks like I'm competent at drawing.  

Birthdays Are Great!

I say, with no irony, that I like my birthday

 like I'm a 5 year old.  I like everyone's birthday, it's a great thing to actually celebrate someone. Not everyone lives to whatever age you are and the older you are the fewer people there are who are your age. Celebrate life every day, but making a day yours to celebrate you and to engage in things to you like is a wonderful thing. 

All that said, I had a fantastic birthday on Friday. I am now 24, I have self printed mini-comics and my life is pretty good, albeit stressful and taxing, things are good. I got to do a lot of things i enjoy for my birthday. 

I started my day with breakfast, which is rare for me, and watching the first half of Monster Squad. That is such and 80s kids movie, it's so bad in many ways (i love Shane Black but I'll account the short comings to youth...even though it was done after Lethal Weapon) a silly rental is always great though. I couldn't be a movie aficionado if I only watched high brow film and documentaries, I believe an appreciate of the dregs and the Ed Woods works to round it all out. I then spent some time talking comics and art with my friend Ragan. She didn't know it was my birthday but had purchased Alias The Cat by Kim Deitch for me, I am fond of underground comics so i'm excited to have the chance to really get into this. I like his line work so I'm pretty jazzed about it. 

I left Ragan's studio and rushed to the mall, almost hitting some jackass who doesn't understand how to make a right on red and just stopped halfway in my lane, and bought a ticket to see Argo. I really loved that movie. I have this thing for 'based on a true story' films (I also love reading biographies and such so it makes sense) and this was such a dramatic story. I was there the entire time for the drama of the situation. I was there for the tension when they thought they were going to get caught. Skin of their teeth. Ridiculous. I loved it, it was such a good movie and I'm so glad I got to see it on my birthday. 

On my way out of the mall i stopped by Au Bon Pain and bought a soup and a cupcake. the soup was really good, it had mushrooms in it which I wish I had known before buying it but I fished all but the smallest slivers out. I finished Monster Squad and kind of took a nap. My father and sister arrived after 6, I showed them my show and books, they were proud of me. We went out to dinner and that was fun, I tried some tilapia tacos, enjoyable. They left, and i went back to the mall to await Glenn and some of his friends and we went to see Skyfall.

As goofy as that movie was, I did see 3 movies on my birthday which was pretty great. i did enjoy it in the moment but in retrospect I have no idea what happened and what the point was, I'll be nice given it's still opening weekend but I am thinking about writing a thing about it to criticize it's flaws. I believe I have made some new friends to talk movies with, something i sorely need. I love talking about, analyzing, criticizing, mocking and loving movies and I really wish i had people to talk movie with. 

I went to sleep in a pretty good mood, even with the drunk army/navy asshats yelling and marching outside. My Saturday was fun, I hung out with another old college friend, watched some glass blowing with my father and sister and tried mahi mahi. I realized while writing this that with the salmon I'm making for dinner tonight I've had fish for dinner all weekend, i'm okay with that. 

Everyone who wished me a happy birthday, thank you, I had a pretty great one. A combination of things i like, movies, reading, spending time alone and with people but not too much of either. It was a mellow low stress day. For me, it was a perfect day, I would not have liked a big bar - drinking thing, but a series of quiet times with people and laughter was what i liked. I hope this was an omen about my 24th time flying around the sun, it's been a chill, good time. I'll hang out with friends, make new ones, see a ton of movies and things will be good. i can only hope. 

The (Almost) Graduated Life

I think I've been living as if I had graduated from school since at least September. When I don't have class I do even less than I used to. I've been using 'I need a break' since finishing my comics but it's been about a week now, I had my show and it went really well last week. I have books, they need some changed but I think I need some distance before I want to look at them but outside of that I've been doing nothing.

My birthday is this Friday, I'm 24 this year so I've been using that as an excuse to just watch movies and DVDs this week but I'm feeling unfulfilled. I look at my desk and feel guilty that I'm not drawing anything. I don't have any major projects to take care of right now, I'm going to class and doing that stuff. I'm starting a small project for Drawing Studio, I need to do some watercolor tests but other than that those pieces shouldn't take me too long. I'm continuing with business as usual for Figure and Glass, but I am considering applying to be a studio assistant at the hot shop next summer. It would be a fantastic experience and I know I'd have a hellulva lot of working there. I'm slowing becoming friends(?) with the employees and other assistants and I enjoy working with glass. I have this thing with physical art, i think. I love drawing and I know I'm always going to draw comics but doing something physical like glass work or relief just ends up being so meditative for me which works out really well when i'm in a dark or depressed state. I'm focused on something other than myself that I find it really relaxing and enjoyable. 

But I honestly haven't been doing much with my life outside of class. Watching Portlandia has been super fun this week but I feel like something is missing because I don't have any active project to just jump into. I have a lot of preliminary work to do, I'm hoping to have the second chapter of Cinema ready for print by March, which is possible I need to write it first. I also have some very loose ideas swirling around my brainspace for the second chapter of Lawrence's Diary and I do have 100 Days 2011 to go back to and finish, one thing keeping me from being really gung-ho about that is my pack of warm tone markers is dying and Jerry's doesn't carry this brand anymore. I have found them online but not all 10 that I need (0.5 WG- ShinHan Twin Touch)  so I don't know if I want to to go to prismacolor for the rest of 2011 and then try to find the Shin Hans so 2012 looks uniform or what. I haven't done a value match, those brands might be closer in value and hue than I think. We'll see.

I started this mentioning before that I'm living the life I think I'll have after I graduate, just hanging out and drawing. it's weird because of how unstructured things are right now. I need to get into the next stages for some new projects so I don't waste my time like I'm doing right now. I think i just have class as the most important thing in my day right now, and it is, but outside of that there's nothing really pressing. This is reverse from my usual school year where my work load is light at the beginning of the year and heavy at the end. My work load was heavy for all of September and October and now it's November and I have so little I need to do to be responsible for school. I'm going to try to get back into the groove of getting up in the mornings and drawing a bit before class. I have a bunch of warm-ups to color and scan and I always have new ideas and sketches that happen.  Like This and this from last week, along with others, I want to do some more drawings with the Chickstronaut, I don't know if there's a story there but there are more drawings. She's a space cowboy and I want to develop that concept. I love the design for her suit, I tried so hard not to make the body another IronMan/suit-of-armor plate clone. 

I really want to draw more than i have been, I'm going to try at that. I also have a relief plate to finish that I haven't touched since August. There are always things to draw and create, I just need to get into the mode of creating again. I hope I can get myself focused and on point so it's not so bad when I actually graduate and i really have nothing to do on a daily basis. You know, until I get a day job, I need to make money so i can make more comics. 

Speaking of, go check out my storenvy! I have my hand stapled and folded comics on sale, there's a limited number ready right now, I have 13 books left out of 25, you can have an exclusive first printing if you hurry! I will have more things on sale soon, and I'm going to see about getting my warm-ups online for sale too. Dig it!

I think i lost it a bit while writing, but some of my lamentations have been voiced. I'm glad I'm not really anxious or afraid of things right now. I'm riding the edge of depression but I think I got bitch slapped by it harder than usual because I have so little to do every day. It wasn't a slow build it kind of just happened which is bull. 

Before go, I'm going to name drop some podcasts, I'm kind of distracted so I can't wax poetic on them right now. I've been listening to Skalrbro Country, This American Life, Pod F. Thompkast

Keep on keepin' on, I'll be back again soon, hopefully with  more direction with that's going on and less of me spinning my wheels. Hell, i'll probably write something about my birthday.