Upcoming Plans

Hi, I'm terrible about updating. 

I currently feel like I'm just dragging my wheels so let's share some plans!

I'm currently working on a recipe zine to (hopefully) be released in April at PIX. I'm tabling PIX again! I didn't want to say 'no' after one poor show so I figured I'd give it another go and try again to sell there. I know returning is a strong consideration to sales, and having new material, I have 3 new books from last March when I tabled, so this would make a 4th new book. 

I, like just about e'urrybody, have recently gotten into Hamilton and I have a few illustrations planned. I've started a 'quick' 2 page comic. It was originally a 3 panel strip, so here's to finishing it soon, it is stopped at 2 pages for the verse that I'm drawing out. I'm tepid on my pencils so I'm hoping that the ink and wash stages will warm me to it more. Some days it's being hypercritical of my art and some days it's my art is honestly bad and I haven't looked since I did these pencils on Thursday so I'm not sure which it actually is right now. 

For my own comics I'm on a slight hiatus which has left me feeling low so the Hamilton ides have been a great boost to creativity honestly. I've been looking for a new job and having little money or motivation has been difficult. My job pays horrendously low and I know we make a killing so it's maddening that I don't get paid more. They'll be fine without me, they were fine before me, but I also know they're doing better with me there so it's frustrating that I'm not compensated better. A friend's mom is trying to help me right now and because I'm trying to focus on jobs I'm trying not to roll too deep into my own creative endeavours, but those would cheer me up so much. I have a micro-story collection I want to write/draw and I've been thinking over how to talk about my skin disease and living with it in a narrative format. I don't have a conclusion because I have nothing to be cured, but I don't have an arc either. Maybe micro stories about living with it would be better. I'm also sitting on 5 different story-worlds that I want to write for and explore and I can't because of the whole job search thing. 

In addition to all of this I was considering foregoing the job route and looking into grants so I can focus on art for a while and those make me panicky. I want to create, but I also need to pay for loans and healthcare and bills. I'm sitting on 3 figures and it's not good enough. Things are too unstable. 

Maybe I'll try to write more. I've recently started taking short walks in the morning, 3 miles in an hour, and doing a few exercises in the house because I'm a very sedentary homebody. I can't tell if it's doing any good yet, I mean, I'm sure it is. And walking is easy so I don't mind. It's just getting up and out. Listening to Hamilton while I'm out is a great motivator because I enjoy it and the first act is so pumped. 

Here, I took some photos on Friday while I was out. And some recent sketches!

Shows an Plans an AHHHH!!!!

Awright, i think I might finally have bigger motivation than guilt to finish this book. 

Next weekend I'll be tabling at the Richmond Zinefest at the Richmond Public Library. I'm going to try to finish my book so I can take preorders for it, but I'll have the original pages to share. 

I applied for Locust Moon in Philly on Halloween, fingers crossed I can show there at the end of October with Hubris of Youth: How to Make Friends and Captivate People in it's printed glory. 

I was accepted into the New Orleans Comic Art Zine fest in November, the weekend after my birthday so I have to figure out how I'm going to get to NO for that. I really want to do it. 

I'm excited. I'm spending so much to go to little one day events, but it's awesome meeting people and getting my books out. I've been tepid about applying for PIX again, but I'll give it another try. If things go well at these few shows, and I get my name out strong enough I might be able to make it to more and other shows. 

I wonder what I'd have to do to set up some kind of show in the Fairfax Co. Public Library system...there are enough DMV creators that I think it could be a great event, but I think I'd rather pimp my wares than run a show, even a small library show.

Planning For My Future Sucks

I got out of one of my least favorite conversations. I don't know what I'm doing with my life. I'm going moment to moment, I'm currently trying to focus on getting stuff ready and done for graduation so I'm not thinking about end game so much.  i ran into someone I've known for a few years and we had that trite conversation where he asked me what my plans are, and shit like that.

My plans are to write and draw my own comic. That's been my plan for years. He asked if there was anyone interested in selling them. That currently goes as far as taking some to my local comic shop and giving them a few, I don't have many and I can't afford to re-print them. Also, no one knows me. Yeah, putting them there 'gets my name out' and I planned on taking some books there, just not the original edition. I don't have many of those and I don't know. Maybe I should.

There was also the 'what kind of job do you want' I don't fucking care at this point. Well, that's a bit of a lie, I'm not doing anything with children, housekeeping and I'd rather not have to clean up after anyone as my entire job. I'll work retail, I don't care. I'll work in a coffee shop, I'll try food service, I just need something that will pay me so I can live for a while. That's what's most important, being able to survive and pay my friggin' rent. i don't have the time right now to really think about glamour things like how I'm going to be know. 

I started getting mad during this conversation. I'm not sure if he was trying to mansplain my career options to me. It was all just irritating so I had to leave before I started cursing and being mean out of anger. i'm also tired of people asking me if I know what I'm going to do. I don't fucking know. I know what I want but i can't get that yet, i have no fucking money to get to where I want to be. Why do I have to know? Why do I have to have a plan? Can't I just work at keeping my head above water before I try to figure out which way the coast line is? I mean, fucking hell.

On a less stressed out and angry note, check out these drawings I did. There are a lot of things over at my sketch blog that aren't posted here yet, I haven't done pretty scans of them for here. I also am going to try to get back into filming doodles and warm ups every now and again. I did a camera placement test this week there are two - Owl with Glasses, Kevin Drinking - I have the pipe dream to get a better camera, so that's a thing on my mind. I'll even go for a small video camera, it just needs to be able to shoot long periods of video. Hopefully soon, I don't know. 

Until I write again! What's fun is I have a thing I want to write I just need to do a bunch of set up for it and I haven't had the time to do any of that for a minute. Keep on keepin' on.