Movie Talk :: The Fall: An Anti-Suicide Story

So, you know how Kiss Kiss Bang Bang is my favorite movie and I'll talk about it forever? The Fall is another movie I can and will talk about forever. Here's the last time I wrote about it.  (I made a video 2 years ago talking about my love of these movies. It will never die.)

This is all spoilers.

Recently I've been thinking about The Fall and people on Tumblr have been posting screencaps and gifs of Lee Pace from it. It got me thinking about how much this movie is an anti-suicide movie. 

It starts with Alexandria's injury, when she fell out of the orange tree on the orchard where her family worked, and broke her arm. From there in the hospital we meet Roy, a stunt actor who has ended up with severe leg/spinal/ injuries from jumping off of a railroad to a river in a gully. Well, he jumped off of something. The character is supposed to be the dashing hero and Roy is his stand in.  

After this injury Roy learns that the girl he loves never loved him and wants to kill himself, because being melodramatic is vogue. 

But! 

But Roy cannot retrieve the painkillers he wants to use to overdose, he starts twisting words and manipulating a earnest child. Young Alexandria, starts an unlikely friendship with Roy when he decides from the beginning to use her to help his own selfish needs. This shows just how twisted and pervasive depression and suicide are. They put on a happy, friendly mask when inside the core of the person is rotten, dank and terrible. 

Roy gets Alexandria onto his side, he gets her to trust him by telling an interesting story of revenge and action. 5 people wronged by an evil empire and their journey to end it, they all come from a broken start. This story, the fictional story within the movie is vibrant and gorgeous. It shows how a different demeanor, a mentally healthier person, can take the dark from one person and read it differently. It's a bit the naivety of youth but also the brightness that is more possible in a child than an adult. 

I think, had we seen this entire story through Roy's eyes it would have been painted darker, more twisted and corrupt, the fun distractions would have been terrifying demons between the brief moments of retaliation. 

Near the middle of the movie Roy makes his first suicide attempt. It fails which breaks Roy that much more. And now his demons are out and they affect Alexandria, she wants to help him. Roy and his story have given her something entertaining past her child heartbreak when he learns that the people you idolize may not be as shiny and golden in reality as they are in your eyes. Alexandria faces her fears because she feels the need to cling onto the horribly broken Roy and help him. His story  and companionship click for her because she she feels like no one else is on her side, and everything Roy says she thinks is for her. 

Alexandria gets injured, this time a concussion, after trying to get more morphine pills for Roy. He tells her he needs to sleep, and she just wants to help. Her attempt to help him and the following admonishments from nurses and doctors in the hospital show Roy that his life has value. He is valuable to someone, even though he was just using her he feels awful. The only person he wants to hurt is himself, but seeing this vibrant and eager life almost destroyed because of his shit Roy fails. He fails at breaking her spirit like his is broken. Alexandria takes over telling the story and helps Roy by showing him that other people are important, not just the one woman who broke his heart.  

If failing to commit suicide, Roy is given a small opportunity to see how his actions affect other people. He's entirely broken by the time Alexandria is injured. He tries to kill everyone in the story but she stops him because she still has hope, and she can see that he's not all rotten. Roy is forced to face his actions, take responsibility for what almost happened, but to also understand how he needs to move on from his perceived slight. There are other people who value him and he understand that that's enough. 

We see at the end of the movie he was going to kill himself over a perceived slight and now little it would have affected the movie he was in, but that there were people in his life who would notice and care. 

All of this made me just realize that this movie, in a way, is very anti-suicide.  People will care, and some people will help you by mistake, because the words you spin will be that sweet. But remember, if they'll help kill you at the wrong time, they'll also help you survive and continue on, it's not fair to use your confusion and your problems against them.  

If you're feeling down, take care of yourself. Links for help here and here.  

 

 

Pacific Rim (2013)

I went fromm knowing nothing about this movie to being all about it. Seriously. 

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Back in October or November when the first trailer or teaser was released I wasn't in on it, but all of my twitter stream were about it. Their lives had changed, they all had boners (I happen to follow a lot of dudes... why are their dicks the first thing to respond to stuff??) so I finally decided to watch it to see what the hubbub was was. My interest was piqued. 

I liked G Gundam. It's the only Gundam series I watched, but I'm cool with the idea of mecha anime so I was kind of jonsed for it, but as the release date rolled around I did what I always do, I didn't look at anything. I'd kind of forgotten things. i wanted to see it because Idris Elba, mechas (jaeger) and giant monsters (kaiju).  In the theater I fell in love with Mako Mori, Charlie Day got a resurgence of love from me, as did Burn Gorman (whose name I always forget. I want to call him Simon, was that his name in Torchwood? I just feel like his name should be Simon...) and Ron Perlman. I was cool with the lead white-dude (Charlie Hunnam), I have a new love for Clifton Collins Jr, but Idris has my fangirl heart is a death grip from his sympathetic squint - fantastic!  Also, Black Dude as a lead hero in an action movie like this.

I feel like Ramin Djawadi did a great job with the score, and whoever mixed the music into the movie did a great job of not calling attention to it. One track sounded a little Iron Man-y, but I might have been too into the movie to notice that after a while, but I think it mostly had it's own flavor as a score.

Going back to people of color, since a lot of this movie took place in Hong Kong I loved the global aspect to the cast. There were some Russians, Americans, a lot of English/GB/UK, Australian dudes and a lot of Asians. Many were nameless and filled in crowd scenes, I feel there could have been more women mechanics in those scenes (never enough women in movies but better than most). It fails the Bechdale test but the women are portrayed as being strong even when emotional. Mako has drive, she has her own motivation and agency. The Russian female, we don't get to see her as much as it seems like some people online would have liked to have seen her, but she was also cool. I've heard a rumor that more was filmed and shown the Chinese and Russian pilots than ended up in the movie. I hope it's true and that it ends up on the Blu-Ray/DVD. I also would have liked for there to have been more black people, but it's a condition with me. I like gender and racial diversity.

Addressing the women in the movie, I liked that there's never a glamour shot of them. Mako is shown as being emotional, enraged, confident, enthusiastic and shocked, but there's never a slow pan  of her in skimpy or sexual clothes. We get to see Charlie Hunnam like that - twice even - all shirtless and muscular. Fully suited or in their casual clothes Mako and the other woman (I forgot her name, she piloted the Russian Jaeger) aren't reduced to being T&A for the audience. Hell, the movie has the thinnest whisper of a romantic element but it mostly focuses on the fact that these fucking kaiju are trying to tear shit up.  

I've been looking at collateral damage in spectacle movies a bit more and paying attention to it more recently. Here the jaeger pilots initially seem to try to avoid fighting the kaiju in the cities and try to save as many lives as possible. I can't imagine how much structural damage has happened over the extended timeline of the movie (there is one major time jump, but kind of 2 because the first 10 minutes set up everything else.) you'd think after battling the kaiju for about 10 years they'd stop building skyscrapers but you need to punch through a building and avoid a Newtons Cradle somewhere.

Some other stuff i liked: there's not time spent explaining the jaegers, at all. The first one was built in 14 months and we're told why they need 2 pilots. No time is extended to how they work, or the mechanics of them. There are some small - not quite throw away- lines about what they're made of, but it's kind of just there was the need and then they were. I don't really care how they work, they exist and they have crazy-mecha magic-weapons. I'm happy at that.  

I don't remember who I saw comment on this but it's true, there is more heart than I expected. It is about stopping the kaiju from destroying everything and taking over earth, but there is believable emotion baggage on the main dude, Mako and with Idris Elba. The support scientists played by Day and Gorman both get their moments to be right and wrong and support one another on their wacky side adventure. This movie is about teamwork and supporting people. Countries put aside ages old disputes to defend the planet from an intruder. Each jaeger is piloted by a team, then there are the numerous crews below them keeping them alive.

I think the last thing I'll bring up that I loved it that there was humor. It wasn't so much 'ha ha irony!' it was 'this jaeger is being this kaiju with a ship'. There were some small visual gags, and some humorous quips but it wasn't like Iron Man (especially 3) where they went out of their way to have levity. It was a bit wry, kind of like 'this is our life and if we don't try to laugh a little we'll never stop crying because this is fucked'. I might be explaining it wrong, but I do want to see it again. There are things you pick up on during subsequent viewings of a movie, I want to see those things.

I was so into this movie that when the theater got dark and it got going I was leaning forward the entire time. I didn't need anything to keep my hands entertained, which happens if things feel slow for me. I laughed I cheered, I felt my heart race with the drama and action. I was game for it all. I even told someone to put away their phone and was prepared to fight about it, but he acquiescenced and I was able to just enjoy the movie.

Was it perfect, of course not, but it was really damn good. And I want to see it again. I'm glad I have the art book because the kaiju and jaeger designs are amazing and I just want to look at them and love the people who worked to make them look so fucking cool.

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Addendum: July 16

I want to issue an addendum to what I had to say about Pacific Rim because I was letting certain biases I have cloud my ability to accept some things as being different from so many other spectacle movies. 

Over the past few days Coelasquid has been arguing against the criticisms that people have had about Mako and Raleigh's characters. She has explained why Mako, a character I liked, was a strong character and more importantly showed how Raleigh isn't a shitty cliche white hero.

That was my bias, I thought he was just a boring white hero-dude because so many movies revolve around the Young-ish White Hero who just comes and and heroes it up everywhere. I did notice and like that he defended Mako and she was never reduced to a Damsel in the movie, or an object. But I thought he was bland because he wasn't an asshole, but it shouldn't be revolutionary for a hero to be a hero to everyone. Many other characters in many other pop culture pieces go through a traumatic experience and fall into depression, alcoholism, drug abuse, sex abuse or whatever self-flagellation the character feels they deserve. Raleigh starts off as a jaeger pilot to be a rockstar but more importantly to help people and even after the accident he's still trying to protect and help people by building the Wall that's supposed to block the kaiju from the American west coast. 

Coelasquid, or someone she reblogged said it: Raleigh isn't a brash asshole (Tony Stark, Bruce Wayne), he defends his female partner without seeing her as a sexual object, (Tony Stark, Bruce Wayne, James Kirk, a lot of movies...most movies tbh), and he admits that he's fucked up which is commendable for hero white dudes who are always right (hey there Tony and Bruce! You two are the same dude in so many ways but that's another essay).

I wasn't just not giving Raleigh a chance to be a Good Dude, which he is, I was also too excited to cheer for the characters played by actors I liked. I want to see Idris Elba in more stuff, I liked the comedic dynamic between Charlie Day and Burn Gorman i really want to see their drift slowed down to understand them better, I loved Rinko Kikuchi even before I read her credits and remembered she was in The Brothers Bloom. I was excited for the kaiju and the jaegers and the stronger depictions of characters who so often fall into bad stereotypes that I didn't give the the main character the same joy. 

Some of coelasquid's posts and reblogs on Pacific Rim, they're more spoiler-y than what I think I've said and they address why Mako's not a weak character, something I didn't need my mind changed on.

Raleigh's Not Boring

Intentionally Corny

Raleigh's a Good Dude pt2

Sequel/Prequel some additional information about Pacific Rim

Why Mako's Not Weak

Mako and Raleigh respect one another

Explaining why Raleigh's character arc isn't shit

 

Child Abuse in Kiss Kiss Bang Bang

Author Note: This is a repost of an essay I had on my movie blogger. I liked it enough that I wanted it over here too. 

So this blog is movie analysis and review. Shut up.

I've said time and time again that Kiss Kiss Bang Bang, written and directed by Shane Black and starring Robert Downey Jr, Val Kilmer and Michelle Monaghan is my favorite movie. My best friend's nickname is a weird reference to the movie and I watch it a few times a year, especially when I'm working on things for class. I've listened to the commentary multiple times, I still yell at the screen and I laugh at the movie. Every time. I know the jokes, the beats a lot. I don't have the audacity to say 'everything' but a lot of things. I mean, I watched that movie every day for a week when I first got it. I wrote a paper on the function of guns and sexual prowess so I mean, I've seen this movie a fair few times.

The other day I was thinking about the fact that a catalyst of the the main action of the movie is child abuse.

It's somewhat glossed over, Shane Black mentions that in the commentary that he wishes in the edit that that beat had stood a bit longer before the movie jumped into it's next joke. It's a black comedy there's terrible and amusing wrapped together in a fucked up fashion for the audience's entertainment.

Harmony Faith Lane left her childhood home as a young adult knowing that her father was molesting her younger sister. There is a short insert showing the father taking the daughter from her bed while the other just lays there pretending she doesn't know this is going on. So, Harmony leaves as a response to running away from something she knew she should have stepped in to stop or affect in some way so that can be seen as psychological abuse. The mother was ill, I believe, and possibly didn't know any of the sexual abuse was going on and didn't stop it. Instigating the action of the movie, Harmony's sister has shown up and taken Harmony's ID and credit card in search of Harlan Dexter the man she thought washer real father because Harmony lied as a child and said that her sister's real father was an actor from Hollywood, hence her seeking Harlan Dexter.

Harlan has recently murdered his daughter and has hired a girl to pretend she's his daughter, the problem is he has some sexual relationship with her that Harmony's sister sees. As Gay Perry (Val Kilmer) says, the shiny new father is just as fucked up as her original father, which leads Harmony's sister to kill herself.  which jumpstarts the investigation.

This brings me to a functional response to child abuse, the children are fucked up. Harmony first running away and not doing anything to take care of her sister is a drastic response to the knowledge that her sister is being molested. The sister running away a few years later and trying to find a new father because her first one is a realistic response. The fact that she kills her self is also believable in that she doesn't want to live ina world where fathers hurt and abuse their children.

Looking at the very common trope in media to have a character become a badass warrior after being abused, raped or in any other way sexually attacked as a young girl, it'd generally female characters, I don't want to say it's refreshing that she kills herself in response to having lived a fucked up life, but it can be seen as a more believable response than lashing out in the controlled ways that other fictional women do. The movies doesn't shy away from the fact that sexual abuse leads to people being fucked up which is a strength to it. It is a bit quiet about it and tastefully doesn't go into details about what happens but seeing how these characters react shows how people can respond to being abused. Seeing how the other characters respond as the information is revealed is also great, it's a quiet fury that things are not all right in the world as a character's chance at happiness with a new father figure are dashed on the rocks of assumed abuse before anything more than a fantasy can be considered. 

The clever writing and the jokes are what made this movie my favorite. How the characters react in unique ways makes it that much stronger as a movie and a fictional version of the real world. The abuse is key tot he movie but seeing how it works on different levels makes it that much stronger as a film in my eyes.

 

Movie Talk: The Fall (2006)

There will be spoilers. This movie is also a few years old. You can watch it on Amazon instant

I was thinking about the Heroes Quest and how it relates to The Fall, also a bit of feminism and movie ratings. Over on tumblr, I saw and queued this post criticizing (female) mutilation in rated R movies versus consensual (or otherwise) explicit sex in NC-17 movies. In criticizing the MPAA (I've done that a number of times in my old movie/tv blog) I was thinking about The Fall, why I wouldn't strictly follow it's R-rating, and why I personally would have little problem showing it to a far younger child. When I got my copy of it I first thought about showing it to my 8 year old sister. The mature ideas aren't really explicit, they are shown in an artistic and narratively complex way so I feel the movie can be enjoyed by both a while and and adult audience at the same time. There are mature concepts, but the child-adult interaction is fascinating, especially knowing about the little girl. 

So many ideas, let's start with the girl, Alexandra. She's in the hospital for having a broken arm. It's the 20s and she's the child of an immigrant farm worker. While being mischievous and wandering the hospital because she likes one of the nurses she meets Roy who has injured his legs or his back as a stunt actor. She returns to him day after day to hear him tell this great epic.

The girl who plays Alexandra was about 5 or 6 during the filming, she didn't know that Lee Pace the actor playing Roy could actually walk, and she was actually learning English as the movie progressed, so her development is there on film for the four months or however long the movie was filmed. They had set ups so she wouldn't always be directly aware that she was being filmed. There's no way she understood the second narrative of the film which is why I would love to show it to a kid, there are two narratives as this adult and child interact. It's kind of crazy. 

The story Roy is telling Alexandria, is about The Black Knight (Roy) seeking revenge for the murder of his brother. On this journey are an old mystic, a black hunter, an Indian, an Italian explosives expert and Charles Darwin. They eventually rescue a woman who has to be killed but doesn't die because of fate. She ends up with the bad guy. The heroes are traveling chasing the bad guy all around the world and Alexandria shows up in the story with Roy and everyone else as his daughter. We get to the final showdown and Roy wins, defeating the bad guy and goes home with Alexandria, after all their friends have died to protect her when Roy wasn't able to. 

What happened to The Black Knight and why couldn't he/Roy save the day? Roy was a stunt actor and was in love with the female lead in a movie he was filming that he was injured working on. She never loved him and broke his heart after his body broke. He tried to kill himself and Alexandria who cares so much for this guy gets a head injury trying to get him pills that will only kill him because she's too young to know what taking a bunch of morphine pills will do.

The narrative is kind of the hero's journey wrapped into the revenge narrative in an interesting fashion. There's never a damsel in distress, there is a woman saved but her being captured wasn't to hurt the male hero. Her being rescued changes him from being a heartless  seeker of vengeance to someone who cares about the people around him until she betrays him by having been in a relationship with the Bad Guy. There's a scene where Alexandria gets a second injury herself but this is after she's changed and has been encouraged to be brave and honorable by the story that she is able to help Roy and The Black Knight by becoming a character in the story. 

Both Alexandria and Roy go through important changes over the course of the movie and Alexandria is kind of more important than Roy because he may be telling her the story, what we see in the story world is her understanding of the world around her. When Roy mentions there's an Indian he mentions his squaw. When Alexandria imagines this Indian in the story-world she images a man from India because that's what she knows. The strength of both character's personalities is amazing. Both are needed for the stories to both work out. Having a respect for children and an understanding of how they thing is important to understanding the two worlds and the reminder that there are different things valuable in both. 

The movie also showcases the power of imagination and storytelling. Stories are powerful, they don't just entertain, they also teach and the audience needs to be receptive of the story for the meaning to be well understood. I don't think I mentioned this before, but the locations in the movie are gorgeous, as a period piece I think they did a great job of establishing the world and bringing over the little things from the real world that inspired Alexandria's understanding of the story world. 

The Fall is crazy, beautiful and weird. I love it, I love watching it and thinking about it because there's so much and it's not just a normal hero's journey, there's so much that influences it. I don't think that the story-world inside the movie could exist and make any type of sense without the 'real world' narrative. I think the real world narrative could exist without showing the story world, but that would be visually boring, and it also wouldn't show how the two injured characters are affecting one another. When Alexandria takes over the story and injects herself into it, it asserts her importance as a person and makes her an active participant in both worlds. 

Like everything I write, I feel this went a little off track. The Fall is a great movie, gorgeous locations and a complex self-paralleling narrative as these injured people help one another. They may no realize how much they influence one another in the moment, but by the end of the movie both characters have been changed by the experiences they had. 

Webseries Talk: EastSiders (2012-2013)

Spoilers, blah blah blah - EastSiders is also ongoing, but I have seen the first 6 episodes (everything that's been released so far) -- All episodes on LogoTV - sorry but I think it's location locked. 

EastSiders is about morality, emotions, relationships and is a fantastic drama. I'd call it a soap opera, but it's big, expansive and over played, it's small and about emotional hurt and pain. Gay couple Cal and Thom start having trouble after Cal learns that Thom has been cheating on him. Cal's best female friend Kathy is in a relationship with Ian and they’re having rocky times because Cathy seems to be reticent to depend on Ian, but Ian seems to be the type to lasso the moon for her.

The show starts the morning after an End of the World party that friends of Cal and Thom were throwing December 2012.  Cal has learned that Thom had been cheating and confronted him about it. As an audience we're dropped right into drama as Cal and Thom decide to stay together after Thom's deception has been found out and he breaks it off with Jeremy, his piece on the side. 

At first, you're rooting for Cal who is the one who was wronged in this relationship, but it becomes more than that as the show progresses and these characters become more than Cheater/Cheated-on/Cheated-With. Little is known as of episode 6 of Jeremy other than he can't give up either Cal or Thom.

But wait, Cal was cheated on by Thom with Jeremy but they now know one another. When deciding to meet the man he hates, Cal ends up drinking with Jeremy as they discuss Thom and while inebriated they fool around together. This makes things more complex then Cal being the wronged party, he has not wronged Thom and admits to hating himself and Jeremy.

Cal is conflicted, he’s now not a victim of cheating, but now a cheater with the same man he was his lover cheated on him with. Cal wants to see himself as being the morally correct party and holds himself to that standard of the hurt party in the relationship. Cal wants to stay with Thom out of spite, they’ve both been wrong and wronged so he feels justified that he and Thom ought to stay together with their personal injuries. Not too long later, while at work in an art space, while having a celebratory drink with his boss, Cal kisses him which leads to them sleeping together. This is after Cal has expressed immense joy over someone buying one of his prints and exclaiming “Someone on the Internet likes me.” This shows how little Cal likes himself as he seeks out men other than his boyfriend for validation. He’s conflicted and he falls from being a ‘good person’ to being a more complex and wrong person as the series progresses. He seems to sleep with people then push them out of his mind, as if thinking that if they don’t acknowledge what happened then it didn’t happen and there’s nothing to be responsible for.  After sleeping with Jeremy instead of addressing the ramifications of his actions, Cal runs away. After sleeping with his boss, who Cal only just learns is married, Cal runs away instead of facing the reality that he cheated on Thom again. Cal seems to have issues with engaging and actively fixing problems that are his fault. When Thom is the one who is wrong Cal is very gung-ho about making Thom feel bad about cheating on him, and feeling bad about his place in life. When Cal is the one who wrongs Thom he does what he can to avoid addressing the problems either by drinking or helping Kathy with her problems. Cal seems to be open to cheating on Thom when drinking, but also seems embarrassed and likes to pretend he's done nothing wrong. He's already expressed a dislike of himself, so maybe he's just trying to feel like someone wants, or needs him. As Cal explores and questions Thom’s commitment to their relationship, Kathy, Cal's best friend plays out long dramas in her head, reaching conclusions without all the facts and doesn't take her boyfriend's feelings to heart as much as she should.

The night of the End of the World party is near Kathy and Ian’s anniversary, he tries to be a good boyfriend by giving her a gift, which happens to be a ring. In Cathy’s inebriation she believes he’s proposing to her and spends the next day (or so) thinking she’s engaged to be married. She plays out the drama, the risks and rewards of being married in her head and to Cal instead of talking to Ian and getting a straight answer. This is cleared up and not long later Kathy realizes she’s pregnant and does the same thing of going to Cal instead of Ian to discuss her future plans. Ian as far as he’s be characterized, is a good guy. He seems to be kind, compassionate, a good friend, he tries to be a good boyfriend, so it’s difficult to see why Cathy is to reticent to go to him when she has a problem.

I’m thinking Kathy is afraid of a lot more than they ever lets on to, at least to Ian if not all of her friends. She expresses fear about she can’t be getting married and why she shouldn’t be having a baby, but she never seems to discuss this with Ian. I think she’s afraid of losing him so she wants to keep him at a steady distance, either to keep from getting to attached so she can cut and run, or she’s afraid he’s going to break it off and she’ll be subjected to more pain. What she does makes me feel really bad for Ian, he hasn’t been shown to be anything other than devoted and honest, so her dishonesty and how she jumps to conclusions in her fear is really unfair. Kathy decides to abort the baby she would have had with Ian and never tells him, he finds out in the worst way they he could have been a father, but the joy he expressed for a hot minute at this thought seems to crash that much harder after he learns that there was never a discussion with him. She might have still come to the same conclusion, but at least he could have known.

 I think her choice to get an abortion is handled in a respectful manner. She's reticent before the procedure and unlike her cavalier to introspective emotional arc when she's drinking and making the decision with Cal, then she's despondent after the procedure. Seeing another woman say she's keeping her baby, Kathy seems like she regrets the decision, and this is something I like about the show. I like how the show plays out how the decision weighs on Kathy and her uncertainty after it's all over. It's not an easy decision and I'm sure many women think long and hard about it, either way after getting one and if they decide not to get one. It's not played as if after the procedure that Kathy feels at peace with everything and confident, she's still uncertain and afraid of the adult world facing her. She's afraid of seeing Ian and then telling him what she decided to so.  She acts like she's always confident and competent, but she's afraid. This by no means makes her a weak character, but it shows how conflicted she is and how difficult life is. She dives head first into her mistakes then fearfully addressing the problems of her actions while recovering after (literally in this instance).

With Cal having started kind of morally as a protagonist in the show not much is currently known about Thom. He's a bartender, he cheated on Cal but regrets it. He's called a bad guy and characterized in the series by mutual acquaintances as a 'bad guy' but so far he's tried to be upstanding. After breaking things off with Jeremy he avoids his calls and texts, spending more time at work or with Cal to prove that he's a changed man. Jeremy is still acting very much the interloper, by going to both Cal and Jeremy's workplaces to try to maintain contact with two people who have decided they want nothing to do with him. Jeremy seems to be obsessed with this, maybe because they were his most recent partners, or their life drama is that alluring that Jeremy can't quit them, he keeps trying to make a place in their story. I'm not sure what Jeremy's MO is, he has expressed enjoyment of both Cal and Thom, when talking with a friend about it Jeremy doesn't know what he wants or what he expects by attempting to continue any sort of relationship with either. 

I look forward to the new episodes every Tuesday, posted at 3pm EST. I like that I can't really predict how the characters are going to act, I can kind of guess what's going to happen but it doesn't feel like I  can see the dots ahead while connecting them to get to the conclusion. I have a few possible conclusions, but nothing feels set in stone, I look forward to seeing how everything either comes together or falls apart. The entire show is about shifting morality and how characters actions change who they are and what their worth is. I don't know what I want to have happen, I don't know who I want to end up happy in the end and who deserves to get their comeuppance.

 I like how realistic things are being handled, that these stories are plausible, have probably happened (maybe not all at once in the same friend circle), but I like how the connections and how people interact is the important thing. How and why people hurt each other, it's greater than sexuality. This is a story about people and failure, and possibly redemption, it depends on how open ended it is. 

Correction: I spelled 'Kathy' incorrectly and have fixed it